‘It was tough’: Billie Eilish recalls moment she realised all her ‘friends’ were employees

Billie Eilish has claimed she misplaced all of her pals when she shot to world fame as a teenage pop star.

The “Dangerous Man” singer, 22, achieved widespread recognition along with her debut single “Ocean Eyes” earlier than taking pictures to world fame upon the discharge of her first album, When We All Fall Asleep, The place Do We Go? when she was simply 17 years previous.

In a particular episode of Lily Allen and Miquita Oliver’s podcast Miss Me?, Eilish answered listeners’ questions across the theme of ghosts, prompting her to open up about not having any pals when she first skilled fame.

“I misplaced all of my pals after I received well-known,” she mentioned. “Actually all besides one. My finest pal Zoe who I’ve been pals with since I used to be like two. She remains to be my woman.

“However she’s just about the one individual that remained. I abruptly was well-known and I couldn’t relate to anyone. It was powerful. It was actually onerous.”

Oliver then requested her whether or not she tried to name these individuals up when she received again from tour, solely to seek out they weren’t answering.

“I attempted however I believe I felt resentful that I didn’t really feel… Like I don’t know I used to be so younger,” Eilish responded, revealing that she realised all her “pals” have been in truth her staff throughout a second at her twentieth birthday.

“I keep in mind wanting across the room and it was solely people who I make use of,” she mentioned. “And all 15 years or extra older than me. After which, one in all my finest pals, who labored with me, give up. Out of the blue and didn’t discuss to me. And it was the worst factor that occurred to me.”

“I had this realisation that oh no, I is likely to be really alone for actual,” she mentioned. “So since then I’ve turn into very distant in that means from people who I work with and I’ve a really bizarre relationship to being pleasant with people who I work with as a result of I’m very freaked out by loss and I’ve loads of abandonment issues.

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“Additionally I might get into relationships and that will be my one pal… even when it was a relationship that I didn’t essentially actually need after a second, I’d be like nicely, that’s all I’ve.

“After which I labored actually onerous on friendship and making pals, and making new pals, and rekindling previous friendships and about precisely a 12 months in the past, I reconnected with a bunch of previous pals and now, I’ve so many pals.”

Eilish revealed that she then grew emotional throughout Coachella pageant this 12 months, in April, when she was on the best way to a celebration.

“We get within the automotive and my pals have been like what’s happening are you okay? And I used to be like completely advantageous… And I burst into tears,” she recalled. “They usually mentioned what’s happening and I used to be like guys, I’ve pals and I simply love you guys a lot and it’s been so lengthy since I’ve had pals. I cried… and it’s actually as a result of I even have friendship now once more.”

Eilish is at present supporting the discharge of her third album, Hit Me Arduous and Gentle. Learn Helen Brown’s assessment right here.

Miss Me? is accessible each Monday and Thursday on BBC Sounds.